Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Blog on a log

I'm too tired to Blog. Blog is such an ugly word. It's an official word now, did you know that? You can use it while playing Scrabble. Learn something new everyday.

I'm too tired to blog, but I'm doing it anyway. I know I have some faithful readers and I want to apologize because I feel like my on-line journal (trying not to use the word BLOG) has become a real downer to read, morose, depressing, negative. I'm really not that type of person, I'm just feeling a bit defeated, that's all. (I promise I'll get better!!) :-)

Thursday morning, at 3:45AM, we will be pulling out of our garage to head to O'Hare airport. I should be thinking about the fact that we will be heading towards an amazing, FREE vacation, something we completely need and deserve. Instead, I'll be thinking about the fact that I'll be leaving my very sick child. I can hardly stand the thought, I've become choked up so many times tonight at the thought. I can't even stand the thought of going to my Weight Watcher meeting because I feel so bad. (I'm gone for less than an hour.) I'm just so sad that this is happening right now.

Today started out so much better, Noah had a very good night, despite being sick, he slept until 8:40am. He woke up yelling "HI MOMMA! HI MOMMA" It was music to my ears. And although he didn't eat much, he played and played. Something I didn't see yesterday. Well, I put him down for his nap and then I had a doctor's appointment myself, because, I am sick, too. I came home and opened the door and saw this child that made me want to weep. He looked so tired and so sad and his eyes seemed so little, he had so much puss oozing from his eyes and the snot streaming down his nose was dark and endless. (sorry to be gross) I immediately came in and cleaned his face off, which is when I noticed that he was so warm, hot. He was breathing fast, shallow breaths. He's done this before but tonight it was worse. I took his temperature and he was at 104. I decided to page the doctor. She called back and was concerned, but told me to increase his Tylenol, (I wasn't giving him enough) wait 30 minutes, give him a luke warm bath and take his temperature again. If he is still "panting," as she called it, call her back right away. I did as she said and his temperature dropped to 102.6 and his panting slowed down. (she compared the panting to what a dog does when it is hot, it pants. A child will do the same thing to try to fight the fever. Interesting. No?)

So, we went to Walgreens to pick up even more prescriptions, came home and he played again. I need to learn to just put him into bed, even if he's playing. The poor boy is so tired, but will play if the house is on fire. As soon as I laid him down he turned on his side and shut his eyes. Poor little guy. I'm praying that he feels better tomorrow. I'm so scared to see what his eyes will look like in the morning, they continued to ooze all night tonight.

And yes, I have a sinus infection. I'm really concerned about going into an airplane with my sinuses so plugged up, but my doctor gave me medication to combat that problem. So, I think I'll head into bed and get a good night's sleep, considering tomorrow night will be a short night.

Today I told Anna we were leaving for vacation, believe me, she is not sad, she's excited! She loves to have her Oma come over. I said we are going on a cruise on a big ship, do you want to see a picture? She replied "sure, great idea!" So, I showed her the boat and she said "you're going on the ocean?" My girl is so smart. Tonight, I told her we were going to Mexico and we were going to bring her back a present "she said from Mexico and America?" My girl is wicked smart.

Don't miss me while I'm gone! Well, you can if you want to.

4 Comments:

  • At 5/02/2006 11:03:00 PM, Blogger christy said…

    I'm so sorry that sweet little Noah is still feeling puny. Poor guy can't catch a break. Hopefully after a good nights sleep, the meds will kick in and he'll be back to his normal, happy self tomorrow.

    Hugs to you! I know how hard it is to leave on a trip you're supposed to enjoy when one of your little ones is sick. It SUCKS. Hopefully everything will be fine by the time you pull out of the garage at 3:45 a.m. (have you lost your mind?) Thursday!!

     
  • At 5/03/2006 06:14:00 AM, Blogger Tracy said…

    Oh Beth, I am so sorry that Noah has this funky cold/virus thing going on. Timing is everything. You should be enjoying this time, preparing to leave, but as the great mom you are you are worried and concerned about your little man. I totally understand. I am praying that today goes better for all of you. The wonderful thing about all of this, you are leaving them in GREAT hands! What better place (if not with you) then with grandparents. What a blessing.

    I hope tomorrow morning you are able to leave with out mommy guilt and get on the plane for a much needed break. You have all been on my mind. I was considering surprising David with a 4 day trip, but I am remembering all to well the work that goes into all of it.

    I can't wait to see all of your pictures!! Live it up!!

     
  • At 5/03/2006 08:27:00 AM, Blogger Lynette said…

    My goodness, Noah seems to get better then worse. Hopefully he's over the hump and is on the road to wellness now. I hope your medicine kicks in and you're feeling good on your cruise. I am glad you got into the doctor before you left - Smart girl you are Beth! Now we see where Anna gets her intelligence (not that I am putting Brian down or anything cause I'm not!) Enjoy the heck out of your well-deserved vacation. I'll miss not reading your blog. You are such a dedicated blogger or should I say online journalist!

     
  • At 5/09/2006 02:29:00 AM, Blogger Jenn said…

    Welcome home! I've been thinking of you while you've been gone! I hope you are feeling better and sporting a tan! I hope the kids are also back to feeling better and had a good time with their Oma.

    Now get blogging, I mean, journaling about your cruise! ;)

     

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